MOMENTARILY HOPELESS

Dreaming of a time when the sun crossed the sky

Dreaming of the night I hoped to find you.

Believing there were times the moon denied the sky

Believing that the night promised I'd have you.

Hoping for the time when nothing burnt the sky

Hoping for the night I held you.

Denying the belief that there ever was a sky

Denying that I'd ever know you. 

Hope burnt into the stars.

I bled my soul before you.

Hope stained the earth below.

You fled before I knew. 

Screaming for the sake of destroying my senses.

Screaming till you knew you had me.

Fleeing from the fear of acknowledging my senses.

Fleeing from the truth, despite me.

Hearing what they said regarding my senses.

Hearing more than enough about me.

Lying to the stars just to torture my senses.

Lying 'cause you knew it'd haunt me.

Hope burnt into the stars.

I bled my soul before you.

Hope stained the earth below.

You fled before I knew.

Hope fails before my eyes.

Nothing I know is true.

Hope tangled beyond belief.

I'll never believe in you. 

Stain my words till I bleed clear

You're fate before is wrought with fear.

UNSUCCESSFUL SEARCH AND RESCUE

Look up from inside,
I speak to hide my lies.
You said you'd never hide,
Well where did you go tonight?
Don't speak
I'll find you soon
I searched
But you were lost by noon.
You promised me you'd touch the moon
Well, what happened to you now?

So hide your face behind your wall
Was I ever there at all?
Take what you said, I hope you fall
You never answered the call

Cast out because of your black heart
I paid your dues right from the start.

You stop to shift your own weight
I cling to all that made you ache
I stopped the search, you were too late.
I couldn't find you tonight.
Hope to burn the sun,
We were made like everyone
But you'll die by your own gun
I can't save you tonight.

I lost all hope to save your soul
I guess you thought I'd never know.
In your defense, you dug your hole.
I never really cared to know.

CONFUSED DISILLUSIONMENT

Lost within myself
Shattered
I am dreaming
You're deceiving
I looked up to find
That you were buried in your lies.
Fragments of myself
Falling
Reaching forth to touch nothing
I looked up to find
That you had gone quite far from me

Stay here, avoid nothing
Stay, and see I remained the same
Right from the start

Searching for myself,
I'm believing
They're relieving
I looked up to find
You gave me faith to see myself.
Surrounded by myself
Drowning
Reaching forth without the air
I looked up to find
The dark avoids the light of you.

Stay here, avoid nothing.
Stay and see I remained the same
Right from the start.
Stay here, and say nothing
Stay, and find the remaining lines
Were drawn too fine.

EXCHANGED EXPRESSIONS

With such a long face,
How can I fake a smile?
I promised I'd fake one for you.
With such a long face,
How could you make it worthwhile?
You promised to help me through.

I'd hope to close off the doors,
Barring entry 'til they broke through.
But I'd locked myself in
And forgot you in the rush.
Banging on the door,
I can't find the key to help you.
Bound by my mistakes
I wait for my dream to crush.

With such a pretty face,
I'd hoped to embrace your smile.
I promised not to feel at all.
With such a pretty face,
You gave me your denial.
You promised not to break my fall.

Searching frantically,
I'll never find the key.
You hold the line
But you can't save me.

LOVE ME 'TIL THE FALL (old)

Feigning for the first time

Grasp me so we'll fall together.

Faking for the last line.

hold me so we'll drown together.

Forget the crash till the cold bites your skin.

Outlast so we don't die in stride.

Forget the splash till the cold burns your skin

Just remember who you never wanted to be.

Feigning, I saw you once again.

Grasp the rail, I'll fall for you.

Faking, I felt you return again.

Hold the line, I'll drown for you.

Indecisive 

I've decided

Would you take the fall?

Inconclusive

I've concluded 

You were never there at all.

BACKSTEP FROM YOUR CELLAR DOOR (old)

Callous eyes

You're my demise

Close my eyes

Let's sparkle tonight

Silent goodbyes

One last time

Just close my eyes

Let's sparkle through the night.

My sights set high

We'll fly tonight

Just look inside and see

We'll all fly tonight

No words to speak

No wounds to bleed

Just look inside and see

We will all die tonight

Enamored minds

You, I despise

Shut my eyes

Let's shine on tonight

Incessant tries

Many times

Just shut my eyes

Let's shine on through the night

We'll fly as one tonight

Will you believe in me?

I'll die alone tonight

Are you relieved of me?

TARNISHED MEMORY (old)

A memory tarnished by a hopeless falsetto

A fantasy lost in the folds of the reprise

Will you sing to me before the overture's completed,

Or will you let leisure free to your own symphony?

The song is lamenting,

The instruments out of tune

As they rise to a crescendo,

Belting out impossibility

A memory vanquished by the lines pulled asunder

A dream destroyed in the song's discovery

Will you sing to me before the final hour,

Or will you let all hope reside in the lost harmony?

The song is dissenting,

The instruments out of time.

As they fall to a close,

Humming insincerity

A memory tarnished by hardened compositions

Hopeless and forgotten by music's insanity.